Suicide of Samadi, A memoir, Zachary O. - front cover
Suicide of Samadi, A memoir, Zachary O. - back of book cover

Gripping and brilliant.

~ Howard Bloom
Author of The God Problem and The Lucifer Principle

A marriage of avant-garde literature and powerful dharma.

~ Jeff Carrera
Spiritual teacher and author of The Path of Spiritual Breakthrough

Zachary gifts us with a vulnerable and vibrant storytelling of the most profound and timeless human journey. Riveting.

~ Sarah Marshank
Author of Being Selfish: My Journey from Escort to Monk to Me

A capitulation of the ultimate journey that few of us recognize within ourselves, and even fewer dare to traverse. Zachary describes a life that many of us dream for and the eventual realization that those fantasies never fill the wounds we carry, leaving us in a perpetual state of dissatisfaction. His tome will hit you where it hurts—and that’s a good thing.

~ Dave Markowitz
2x bestselling author of Self Care for the Self Aware and Empathapedia

A glorious ride! I was caught in the story, in the stream, in the love of transformation and what it takes to really transform. The incredible humor of it! It made me remember the horrible experiences of shedding conditioning. I didn’t want to put it down.

~ Shannon Pernetti
Co-author of The Treasure Within: An Archetypal Unfolding to Your Infinite Potential

This is truly the best description I’ve ever read of this process. The most beautiful writing.

~ Hilary Stuart
Naturopathic Physician and Creator of Illuminated Healing Systems

Zachary takes us along on a hero’s journey on the path to enlightenment. This labor of love is fully consummated—thoughtful, intense and richly developed. Through sensitive and selective attention to detail he succeeds in evoking both the external, physical and the internal, mental context of the stations along the way. It is the next best thing to being there.

~ Dr Gerry Brown
Former Director of the L.P. Cookingham Institute of Public Affairs, Henry W. Bloch School of Management, University of Missouri-Kansas

About the Author

After studying Russian and French at Bristol University in England, I began my professional career working for Maestro Valeri Gergiev, conductor and creative director of the Mariinsky Theatre in New York and St Petersburg, Russia. Following my tenure I spent several years in meditation retreat in southern France and India. Upon my return to New York I was invited to serve as Executive Director of the Association for Research and Enlightenment otherwise known as the Edgar Cayce Center in mid town Manhattan. Soon after I began my private therapeutic practice and joined LionHeart Consulting, a Sufi based Organizational and Leadership Development firm in Portland, Oregon. Following ten years of my own experience of chronic illness I was invited to serve as the in-house Psycho-Somatic Specialist at Sophia Health Institute, a World Class Lyme and Complex Illness Clinic under the leadership of Dr Dietrich Klinghardt and Dr Christine Schaffner, where I supported patients to heal the psycho-emotional, familial and ancestral roots of their chronic health conditions.

In 2020 I left the clinic to focus on training other practitioners in a trans-disciplinary, systemic approach to healing that focuses primarily on the language of the unconscious, and the energetics of the Tao.